It has begun.

Actually nothing has begun….but I felt a little Shang Tsung-y today. =]

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I received my proof for the paperback of Requiem for Blood. *dies*

It felt so great to have it in my hands, so freakin` smooth and shiny. I don’t care if no one else in the world likes my book, there aren’t enough words to describe the immense and intense feelings of watching your creation in real time and 3D. LOVE LOVE LOVE.

So, pics or it didn’t happen, right?

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Don’t mind the mess. I’m getting ready to move =[

And of course this is the late as hell out of date proof (text on the spine is so totally OFF T_T) because createspace wanted to be super cheap and ship it parcel post/media mail, whatever. So now that I’ve fixed the errors and re-wrote the blurb and fixed the spine, I’m awaiting the review and will just automatically approve the digital proof! HUZZAHHHHH. SO FREAKING EXCITING. <3

It’s like giving birth to a baby sans the blood, pain and screams.

Dear non,

Why are you so calm and zen-like?

Just comes with the territory of being AWESOME. Heh.

 

What are you currently writing?

Vampire HS students trying to survive the freaking zombie apocalypse.

 

 

Quality Update~

If you download REQUIEM FOR BLOOD, on Monday 02/25–the first of it’s three FREE days, please wait a few hours and then check under Manage my Kindle for an update. The second edition fixes a few faulty sentences and omits over descriptive language in some parts. I’m terribly sorry for allowing you to download a “bad” copy. m(__)m

cannot compute

That’s pretty much what my brain says when I will it to write. And that’s why I’m stuck in the nowhere space of novel writing–with just 300 words. Once again, non fails. My process of writing isn’t a complicated one: a single thought forms and for the next couple of days the thought grows like a tumor, embedding itself onto my brain until I feed it’s need for attention. After that, I’m literally plagued daily with new ideas for this “story thought” but they aren’t ideas, they are simple words that turn into phrases and evolve into one liners that I have no idea where I’ll throw them since I don’t have an actual story mapped out. Still, I write them on a sheet of paper or on my iPad and wait for the day to use them. Then I spend a massive amount of time giving thought to the characters’ name. Yep, I cannot write a story unless I have a simple name…which for me isn’t very simple. It involves countless hours searching baby name sites, thinking of family members and other stuff. Even after I get a name, I end up throwing that name away days later because I feel so attached to the name, if I don’t absolutely love it and feel that it is a great match for the character I will abandon it. I don’t know if it’s a writer thing or a me thing, but the name has to fit. For Requiem for Blood, Olivia couldn’t be anyone but Olivia. There isn’t another name in this world that would fit her and I need to have that same feeling for all my characters. So with naming and one liners out of the way, I can finally get to the premise, right? Right? Wrong. Now, I have to describe the characters, how they look and act to see if their name matches their personality. This begins a lengthy process of character interviews. Who are you? What do you want? What color are your eyes? I honestly feel like I’m in some forced speed dating situation but that’s just how it goes. So after determining all of this, I can finally begin plotting (woo yeah! yay!) and then it begins… and then it ends….(plotting isn’t too bad for me, actually) Now to start outlining–that’s where I fail big time. I can never come up with a cohesive thought so they are never streamlined and are often sporadic which makes me trash the whole thing. Luckily that hasn’t happened for what I’m writing right now but it doesn’t make it any less difficult. Now matter how detailed I am, it just doesn’t work for me. I’m thinking I should take some classes to better sort my brain but I don’t know if it would actually help. I just tend to have very sporadic thoughts, often having random trails of thoughts before opening my mouth. Imagine a wiki walk going on in someone’s head….yeah, that’s my brain. That is probably why it cannot compute. So my plan today is to just try my hardest at being in sync with my brain and churning out as much as I can. I hope I can do so, but I generally plan for my epic failure anyway.

P.S. There was a flash 99 cent sale on my book but then I changed the price–no one bought it anyway–but it will be FREE on Monday the 25th. Get it Get it Get it<3 and please tell your friends, if they can stomach the human blood drinking aspect! Also, there is still a GR giveaway for the paperback, except it went back to review because I added two stinking words, so that won’t be back up until Monday.

on the move

the mischievous pen is on the move!

The site will be moving and will look much prettier in a few weeks, so that means it will be down for a while. But it’s cool because no one comes to my bloggie anyway so no one will miss anything, heh. In small news, my book REQUIEM FOR BLOOD is out on Kindle now where you can borrow for FREE if you are a prime member. If not, it’s just 2.99 .99 3.99 to purchase and comes with a seven day refund if you think it is the equivalent of shit on e-paper .__. Other news? Paperback is coming soon and an autographed giveaway will be hosted on Goodreads for two copies!! E-book is NOT available on other retailers because of KDP Select (sorry) but if you still wish to get a copy and a free one no less, join me on LibraryThing and search under member giveaways! Currently, 31/60 copies have been requested.

Well, let me get back to watching Glee. I have some long overdue posts to put up, including my dissertation on Twilight’s influence on consumers and vampire books which is not at all insightful or thought provoking. I also wanted to make a comparison between two characters in REQUIEM FOR BLOOD which the partner describes as Ichigo (from Bleach) vs. Goku (from Dragon Ball)–why one is better than the other. Of course, if you haven’t read the book, it may be a useless rant so please check it out:

Click to Purchase~

Click for 2 Chapter sample (more than amazon.com)

Add it on GR~

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If you are a writer~ visit often as I will be talking more about my writing highs and lows. I would love to follow others but searching blogs all day is tiresome, so just drop your stuff below!

If you are a reader~ visit often as well as I will be talking about WIP! Especially useful if you did in fact, enjoy reading my first and only book.

If you are a random person who stumbled here by accident~ Thanks for coming! Hope it was of interest to you.

winter care

So even though this is my author blog where I guess I am supposed to blog about all things writing, I have to take a moment out and share something that’s been plaguing me. Winter. In all it’s snowy glory, it also happens to be super harsh on our skin and hair, so please allow me to share some tips with you.

HAiR.

I have very curly hair. See image to right. And curly hair tends to get very dry (not too mention is quite fragile). The dryness is attributed by the lack of cuticles around the hair shaft and not getting toooooo scientific, it just means us curly haired girls have to use a lot more products to keep frizz away. Frizz=Dry hair. I recently had to cut all my hair because I did something very stupid….bleach my hair several times in less than a year. I went from Brown to Red to Blonde to Orange and now I have Purple hair in my underlayer and on the top (black in the middle). I wanted to bleach it turquoise but alas it is no longer in my future, or at least for a year.  Here are some of the products I use (did I mention my hair is super thick?) that may or may not work for you.

Coconut Oil-smooths cuticles, penetrates hair shaft.

non's curls

Jamaican Black Castor Oil- seals in the moisture of any product because it’s very heavy.

Neutrogena Triple Moisture Leave In- pretty good for moisture. I like to wet my hair before putting it on.

Organix Moroccan Oil- Another great one. Smells good and great for shine, softness.

WEN Fig Cleansing Conditioner- Very moisturizing and shampoo free (making it very gentle on fragile hair). Variety of “flavors”, Fig is best for thick hair. They also have a deep conditioner that goes with, I recommend that and their refresh (is that what it’s called?) spray/spritz. Tis amazing!

Chaacoca Mask- I only bought it one time, online, and it was pretty good from what I remember. Great for strengthening hair, so too much can dry your hair!

TIGI Bed Head Urban Antidotes 3 Conditioner- First, it smells freaking delicious! And is great for nurturing color damaged hair. I bought it at drugstore.com but in America you can find it at the salon and ULTA (i think). Here in Germany, it’s at any hair store.

TIGI Bed Head Dumb Blonde- Used when I first bleached my hair blonde. Smells absofreakin`lutely delicious. Like pineapples but soooo much better. Great for softness.

Joico K-Pak- I don’t use it often as too much can dry your hair. It is meant for strengthening so it has loads of protein. IF your hair is damaged give it a go, but with winter and dryness, I’d be cautious.

Aubrey Organics Honeysuckle Rose/GBP Conditioner- Both great for softness and moisture.

Tsubaki by Shiseido- Specifically I use Damage Care and Head Spa which are sooo great! You can buy them online at ebay and stuff but I would advise against it as they are insanely overpriced!! I buy it in Japan and it’s just 398 yen (no more than $5).

Do I use all of these products in one sitting? Nooo. But they do get used often. So how do I use them? Well my regiment is a bit involved so bare with me.

I may or may not do a hot oil treatment (depends on if I’m going to use regular shampoo that dries my hair out as it cleans). I then shampoo, lately I have been using Organix shampoo and then rinse in coldish/lukewarm water. Oh, I divide my hair into four parts for this. Then I will take a detangling product and go through my hair with a wide comb. If my hair is need of some TLC (especially after coloring) I will use my Joico K-Pak and leave in 5 mins. Next, put a conditioner (Herbal Essence Hello Hydration or Long Term Relationship is good and cheap…otherwise I use one from the list above), go through my curls for anymore tangles with the comb again. Sometimes I think, “my hair could use a little bit more moisture” then I grab my deep conditioner and dump it on my head, throw my shower cap on to generate heat which helps the conditioner penetrate the hair shaft and finish my shower. Rinse with COLD water. I believe cold water seals your hair cuticles while other’s say it doesn’t… You can decide. I then put coconut oil or really any oil (I have alot of oil that I purchase from ebay), then the neutrogena or you could skip if it’s beginning to be too heavy for your hair. A little Moroccan Oil (argan oil) and Yossha!! Soft curls!! Mind you, I never blow dry my hair but on the very rare occasion that I do, the blow dryer that I own is Sedu 4000i. I also own a flat iron: Babyliss

Things to remember when it comes to winter styling:

  • Lay off the heat– The dryness of the air is already sucking out a ton of moisture do you really want your styling products to take anymore??
  • Lay off the cotton– Cotton sucks moisture from hair as well. That amazing 800 thread egyptian cotton pillowcase you’ve got is still cotton at it’s core and is robbing your hair of it’s moisture, so grab a silk pillowcase or scarf!
  • Wait till spring to bleach– We all know bleaching is super harsh and so is winter air. Sooooo, point made.
  • Boar bristle– Use a boar bristle to smooth out curls. They are a bit expensive but totally worth it.
  • Oil is great for thick hair but thin hair will be overwhelmed. Adjust accordingly.

Whew!! That was long….but wait there’s MORE!! (echo) More more more more….

SKiN.

A few months ago, I bought some things from Sephora, one being my handy dandy Clairosonic Mia 2!! It is so awesome. When I look back on my old methods of washing my face they just seem so LO-TECH. So I ordered my Mia 2 and got with it dr. brandt pores no more, murad skin perfecting lotion and some facial cleanser that I can’t remember but have been impressed with. I love the pores no more but I could’ve done without the skin perfecting lotion, it seems to burn my skin everytime I use it. Fortunately for me, that same day I placed an order for the Mia 2 I went to beauty.com and bought Origins A Perfect World which is capital A-mazing for winter. It is not recommended for oily skin (which I do have, well, combo-oily) but winter makes it necessary and the fact that hormones tear my face apart is all the more reason this moisturizer is so good for me.

I placed another order at Sephora because at the ripe old age of 7000, I seem to be noticing dark circles under my eyes T__T so I bought Shiseido White Lucent Anti-dark circles to help combat them. I bought it because I use Shiseido White Lucent Concentrated Brightening Serum which is great for when I get blemishes. It’s a slow process and haven’t seen too much to say that it was a good purchase but I’ll continue to hold out until I finish the bottle. When I made that purchase I got a Beauty Insider package which came with a sample of Murad clarifying face wash (I approve), perfekt skin perfecting gel and l’occitane divine cream (haven’t tried yet).

I think my facial routine is simpler than my hair. I wash my face with whatever facial gel I have on hand (some I’ve used are Purity by Philosophy, Murad, Boscia, DHC, Skinfood) then I apply toner (always Thayers Alcohol Free Witch hazel) and then brightening serum (as I said currently Shiseido, may try Clinique but I’m already satisfied with Shiseido.), next is moisturizer (currently Origins A Perfect World, previously Hope in a Jar, before that Burt’s Bees). I also like to do facial massages to improve flow~ it’s good for a youthful look! A few times a week I will put on a facial mask, mainly My Beauty Diary (from Taiwan), they have so many different ones that do different things I couldn’t possibly talk about all of them now. Maybe in another post I will do a review of skincare products (both American and Japanese).

Things to remember:

  • Wash your face morning and night– don’t be lazy!
  • Here’s a really good one for acne: Salicylic Acid is good, you’ve probably heard that but if you want to speed up the process of getting rid of acne dab a little bit of Tea tree oil on it! It can also be used on your scalp :)
  • Change your pillowcase often! Do you know what lives in your sheets??? Skin flakes that you not only inhale but OMG, the oil and junk just rubs back on your face.
  • Switch your moisturizer for the season.
  • Oily skin– use toner.
  • Don’t be afraid to try out facial masks– there are so many options and they are quite fun to use.
  • SUNSCREEN. ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS. And especially when you are brightening your skin.

Now, I will go back to writing. And still to come, Twilight 2.0– Why your vampire book (and every vampire book you’ll read from now until infinity) is Twilight in disguise.

Give a Like if this was helpful~~~ Thank you!! And comment with some tips that you’d like to share or if you have some product recommendations! The partner thinks I buy too many beauty products but I can never have enough MUWAHAHAHA!!

everything except writing

“So what had happened was…” Ah, that was always the best foray into an excuse when I was in HS and I’m not totally (well, maybe a bit) ashamed to say that that is how I will start my sad explanation of why my book isn’t out. I’m lazy! Have been and probably always will be. Btw, Happy New Year 2013. Did you know it was the year of the Snake? It is! And Snake’s happen to be quite lazy according to Chinese zodiac (it’s spot on for me, who is in fact, a snake). So, yes I, as a Snake, am a very lazy person and this unfortunately includes writing–or my lack thereof. It began with “I’m gonna self-pub this super cool story about nothing and be like super popular on the netz yo”. Well, I guess it was more like “I’m too lazy to find an agent so I think I will humbly self publish a novel on my idea of vampire origins……by TOMORROW!!!!!111″ and that was sometime in August. Suffice to say, it never happened but the writing continued, albeit slow. So slow that conversations started to go like this:

Partner: How’d the writing go today?

Me: It went…

Partner: So…you didn’t really write anything?

Me: I did research!!

Partner: So, what you’re telling me is…you didn’t really write anything?

Me: Grrr. I’m going back to playing Pangya writing.

Hi-five for productivity!

Anyway, here I am now in 2013 with an almost complete novel and I’m super (can you tell it’s my favorite word?) excited for it. Nervous but way excited. Though I keep having recurring nightmares that people seek me out and throw rocks at me for subjecting them to a craptastic story which leads into this:

Me: I have to start the whole story over again…

Mom: Why?

Me: I thought the writing was juvenile and the plot thin and/or riddled with gigantic craters. Also, I don’t think people will connect with my main character. I hate my story and it’s boring!

Mom: Honey….[insert mom's obligatory positive words]

Me: Yeah, well, I have standards and what I’m writing does not live up to my standards. If I had to pay for this book, I’d be angry!

Mom: You can’t think like that.

Me: Blah, blah, iSock.

And it’s true. I’ve had to re-write this book several times, and actually due to completely re-write a few chapters. I think my main character is missing continuity in her character. I’m trying to make her one way, which I’m sure readers will not be a fan of (but hey, it’s whatever. my story) but sometimes I find her deviating from that. Unfortunately by the time I’ve noticed her premature change in character, even when she does or says something out of character, I’m already thousands of words past it and then have to suffer the re-writes after not being pleased. As I read through my fanfic/original non-gasoo fiction notebook, I realize how much easier it was to write when I wasn’t taking myself so seriously. Because it was like, “Whose going to read this besides people on soompi who know me as XX??” so it was no big deal, but publishing…ah, just the thought alone, instills me with terrifying nightmares that have me tossing and turning, where not only I, but my partner as well, lose tons of sleep. I’m so ready to do it, to share my story with the world. Hoping I can write a book to the best of my ability that people will enjoy and I’m thankful I have think skin when it comes to criticism (courtesy of all those nasty bullies and my parents tactless honesty) so I look forward to hearing response… I just have to get the freaking book out!! See, I’ve even wasted this blog talking about everything other than what I set out to talk about. I was supposed to get on here and say, “zomg, instead of writing I just play pokemon, watch YT vids and obsessive compulsively check my email and you shouldn’t be like me unless you want to fail at life!!”

So there, I said it.

Now, my non-existent readers, please share anything~how you slack off or stay focused? Tell me whatever. And do like the post if you can relate! ^_^

failure can be an option

As i begin to cross the 50,000 words out of 70something thousand to my novel, i think back to November. This was my first year participating in NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) which requires some serious diligence and tenacity that at the time, i didn’t possess. Possibly, I still don’t possess it but I’d at least like to know I learned from my failure. Writing 7,500 words a day may be easy for most but it requires immense training of my brain to even compute more than 100 words, well, maybe 1000. I think I do about a 1,000 a day. But with writer’s block and stuff randomly happening that always seems more interesting than what you’re writing, it’s hard to get even a few coherent words on a sheet of paper. Yes, NaNoWriMo 2012 was a sucktacular bust, but it’s given me a better approach to writing. Will I always churn out 50,000 words in a month or even 2,000 in a day? No, not really. But I’m OK with that. Those who pump out 50,000 by the final day of November are declared NaNoWriMo Winners, well, I’m a proud NaNoWriMo Failure!

Being a failure now teaches you how to be a winner in the future.

Honestly, you have no where else to go but up, right? ^_^

intro

When I started this blog in 2009 I never thought I would use it to share my crappy writings with the world, those were reserved for the deepest, darkest hole in my empty soul (sorry, brooding moment). Seriously though, I have more than twenty stories that sit in a notebook that smells like Gain’s Apple Mango Tango (cause I spilled it on it) and is titled Spanish I (what better place to write your stories than a class you were cruising through?) and I have several more on my computer but they were never anything I intended on letting other people read. I guess it just feels odd for me to be using this blog as a platform for my debut novel, subsequent novels and other random things that have to do with myself but I will do my best. がんばります~ (Ganbarimasu, in case you were wondering) I’m so glad I came up with such a clever ridiculous  [insert adjective] name for this blog, because it seems like the perfect fit. Yay!

Here’s to firsts, and hoping that you will join me on this ride.

Welcome to the mischievous pen.

P.S. – Doesn’t that little elf  at the top look a bit mischievous as well?

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